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So I'm going to do this new thing, and idea came across i want to read 50 different books, that i've never read before.

So I need people to suggest books for me, I'm open for any book and willing to read just about any book. I'll then comment on them and crap but just give me a list and I'll go and read them.

List your faveorite book comment and I'll choose it if I haven't read it yet.


UM

that's it.


THE LIST

1. Middle sex
2. Feed - MT Anderson
3. Storytime - Edward Bloor
4. Brave New World - Aldous Huxley
5. It's Kind of a Funny Story - Ned Vizzini
6. Invisible Monsters - Chuck Palahniuk
7. Haunted - Chuck Palahniuk
8. The Phoenix Affirmations Eric Elnes
9.  Asphalt Jesus by Eric Elnes
10. Velocity
11. The Good Guy
12. Odd Thomas
13. Forever Odd
14. Brother Odd all by Dean Koontz
15. The Phantom of the Opera by Gaston Leroux
16. A Certain Slant of Light by Laura Whitcomb
17. The Devils Laughter by William W. Johnstone
18. Choke by Chuck Palahniuk
19. The Known World by Edward Jones
20. And Then There Were None by Agatha Christie
21. Murder on the Orient Express by Agatha Christie
22. Animal Farm by George Orwell
23. Treasure by Clive Cussler
24. The Phantom Tollbooth by Norton Juster
25. + Fight Club [Palahniuk]
26. + Phantoms [Koontz]
27. + Battle Royale [Takami]
28. + As You Like It [Shakespeare] -- technically a play, but whatever
29. + Perks of Being A Wallflower [Chbosky]
    
30. + Sex Drugs and Cocoa Puffs [Klostermann]
31. + Devil Wears Prada [Weisberger]
32. + Memoirs of a Geisha [Golden]

I had this really awesome chat, about faith and it was cool..i was going to show it but I can't


So this post is all you get.

Alright.

Alright.

I'm tired and will soon go to bed.....


Good night.

Work it out....what does that mean?

can things JUST work out on their own or what? is there some time line for everything?

What does that even mean anymore


Work it out.....


suck a duck i wish i knew...


Somedays I wish everything was preplaned and we gor a little sneak a peak of what is to come you know just something of what may come to be, but I guess it's for the better to just let things happen on their own let them just...go through the waves of whatever.



UGH!


it sucks being indeceive oh well life goes on.


In a few months none of this will matter and all of this will be laughed away...


Maybe the timing isn't right


maybe things just won't work out



but everything happens for a reason, and hey what doesn't kill you makes you stronger?



right?

Grace, something that is suppose to offered to the world, the messangers of Grace sometimes lack it when dealing it with other people.


The church use to be a certain of hope- a place where people knew they could go for help.


Now you mention going to a church for help....you'll get the look of disgust "I already feel bad enough...why would I go to the church to feel worse?" which saddens me, Jesus came to heal the weak he came to heal the lame, not to heal the healthy. He gave us a mission to spread the Grace to others. To the down and out, to the addicts, to the crack dealers, to the whores, to the prideful, to the murders, to the rapist, to all those who need to feel human again.

But its funny we don't offer Grace at church


we offer judgement
we offer phoney caring
we offer hate
we offer grace as long as you look like us....

But thats not how Jesus did it, he offered Grace, than told them to do no more wrongs. that was it

he didn't say they should shave
or attend church sunday morning, sunday night, wednesday night and friday morning bible study.

He offered them love and compassion, and grace to the graceless. It seems thats the lesson Jesus kept trying to drill to his discples, GRACE is a BIG deal guys....which seemed to just go over their heads until he was gone.

Grace is what sets christians apart.

Other places can offer food, water, shelter, help. But it's Grace that sets us apart, the ability to forgive those who did us wrong...to be able to forgive ourselves....


Grace is a really powerful thing.....What's so Amazing about Grace- is a good book Philip Yancey good author....


that's all.

How do you know when you fall in love?

It's one of the tricky topic of life, people fall IN love, people fall out of love. Yet if love is a lasting thing, would it then mean that love is a choice.

And there are things that blow me away..
.
are you ever sure that the person you love is going to be true to you...
are you sure that you will love them in 50 years...60 years..90 years....
are you sure that you're the right fit?

I've seen marriage after marriage fail yet i don't know...there are those that work and you see how they interact sometimes its better sometime its worse....i don't know.


random thoughts but ive been thinking about it....meh


alright end of that thought


im too full...

Somedays I wish I wasn't alone

Somedays I wish people understood how i felt..

somedays i just want to be alone

somedays i want to be surrounded by others


somedays i fail

somedays i don't try

somedays...somedays...

So I read up on others who have sumer list, and well this is mine:

1. Go to the beach
2. stay up late night talking to friends
make a person smile once a day
make one stranger smile
get rid of a lot of stuff

scare myself
go home
have a bonfire
explore the places around me

change


grow my hair for dreadlocks

write more in my journal

keep in contact with people i haven't been around for awhile.


show love to strangers


get a third job

laugh a lot


enjoy time with friends

laugh even more

make something beautiful

make something of my dreams

fall in love

find love

forgive people

read 20 books

enjoy the moment

take pictures of my friends


ummmyeah

So....
          I've started to run
                         I HATE IT    it'll be good for me....

                                  Somedays I love life
                                                       Other days I want to find a way  to get loved haha no this is way too sappy.

I've been rereading the HARRY POTTA series- well from GOF to HBP- I'm on OoTP now....DH is going to be big and I WON'T look at the internet until I read the whole damn thing!


My stomach is full of Ramen and Peanutbutter Captin Crunch(I ate at different times promise)


Well-----This is all I got....

So I saw Pirates again tonight...and well I ended up liking it a lot but not that much I was bored and a friend wanted to see it.


And well watching the movie gave me ideas- and I'm in fear my love life will end up like Will and Elizabeths....Unatainable....Unuseable....


And that's sad...


I want to find looooooooove where you just know- and nothing splits it up...but I suppose that will never happen, but meh- to each their own...


So as I write this I'm going to go and start on my journal, my hand written journal- which is more easily personable than this web one....

this one is for all my fans which as seen is fully in demand.


That is all....

Well I saw Pirates tonight...

I had a break down...


I need help....


will you help me?

So I'm new to LJ and Im sitting here watching it rain, and missing how it feels to be out there, feeling little drips on you and being held by someone who is as ewually wet and then for that one moment you look into their eyes and feel forever passing by....and then you kiss, and dear Lord when you kiss the firework spark and you dance and play in the rain...and its amazing...


I love the summer and the smell of rain hitting the hard hot pavement I love it....

That's just me talking about summer